Wednesday, December 16, 2009
CTs starts in approximately 3 hours 20 minutes.
I haven't touched 3 chapters of the paper I'll be sitting for later.
Not panicking. I'm still having lamb steak + fries + broccolis for lunch right now in my room. And all I can think of now is how almost everyone laughed when I told them I cooked broccolis for Derek on the day he enlisted whenever I stuff another broccoli into my mouth.
Sad.
Very funny meh?!
I know the pain of having a boyfriend with the govt like fuckingfinally. It's not funny, it's no joking matter, it's a viscious phase that could push you up the wall and put you on the brink of tears. I never thought it would have been even a quarter this bad(not even half) but Weijia told me I'm only human to feel this way.
Made a list of To-Dos after Friday when papers would end. Talk about focusing on studying... Sigh.
Have a lot of Peishi uploads to be done after the papers on how elaborately we celebrated her 19th.
Such a redundunt post, but I just needed it.
Ok back to eating.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
I've been cutting off my spilt ends for the past one hour or so, while Weiru was falling asleep on the couch behind me. I'm so obsessed with my hair these days but I guess that doesn't change the fact that it's still thin dry curly and almost close to looking like the hair between your pits.So much for work productivity. I should have stayed at Siglap alone to do my work, sighhh now I'm distracted with my spilt ends and it makes me wanna go for the haircut(which has been very delayed, haven't had one since CNY).
Everyone's like enjoying life except me. Shearen away in Indo, when I last called Imee she was L4D-ing, Nicole in Europe, Miko in Korea, Jr going to Korea soon, Simran and Price done with exams and the latter is going Zoukout(!!!) tonight............ All fuckers. And then when it's time for me to study everyone starts asking me out. All fuckers again.
I feel so fat now, cos I just drank another can of Red Bull and ate Pringles and chocs and 3 yoghurt topps. Notice you eat a lot more when you're depressed? I feel like some xiaolongbao right now at Novena.
By the way if you're a good friend, please don't ask me out until the 18th unless it's for the only good reason to ask me out - which is to study. Please eject fear in me by telling me that I will fail no matter how hard I try, and I will have to retake module, and I will have to be barred from attachment if I fail...... All in the name of friendship you'll be the bestest friend ever for the motivation you're gonnna give me and please act like you mean it if you say for the sake of saying I know you acting only and like.. No effect what like that.
Shit I just pressed my hair ends between my thumb and index and I heard that 'zzzzzz' sound.
SO DRY.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Feeling too much that it feels like nothing
Feels like you're going for a 2 year jail sentence when you're finally gonna be botak tmr. And we just saw each other for the last night merely for an hour - which was well spent with every second that passed in any case.. But sigh one hour nia.
I think I got over the fact the night before, that you can't be there for me whenever I want you to anymore. The phrase 'time is not a factor', is screwed it into my mind hard and good and I didn't pull a long face today when we met like, wtf!! So little time and I still wanna waste time sulking. Pretty dumb right. So I was logical and I didn't.
It's not the end of the world. I'm sure technology will save us.. Now that I have free outgoing to Derek my phone bill won't go rocket high no more!!!
Shit la.
Ugh.
Fuck.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
I told myself I'll never be with someone that smokes, someone that's younger than me(even by months), someone that doesn't like shopping, someone that doesn't like going to town, someone that never agrees with me on what food's good, someone's that is so damn lazy(!!!)... Someone that is everything that you are.
But I feel so upset, that in 2 more days things are gonna be so different for us. No more late nights out, heading to the park, mindless car rides... I just wished we started way earlier and I wished things wouldn't have been this complicated and for you to go through all of these unnecessary crap.
I guess I never had such overwhelming emotions all coming at once in the longest time.
P/s: Quit smoking ok?
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Tonight's gonna be a good night
It was so painful to convert every single one of these photos from raw file formats to jpegs... One by one.
I had 6 hours of sleep for two days.
I'm so lazy with words so this is what I'm going to put you up with in the meantime.
